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.​.​.​Belong

by Meishi Smile

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1.
Here 02:06
2.
Star 03:33
see your smile turn a faded red the fault of us is sure to end bruise my words tear through the sound in place of you is a new star lasting things will find their place lights flash in distance, we trace… waves crash so far without your touch is heaven such a place so far? guilt is gone with days at rest if we could meet let it be in dreams now release and fold this sanction we hold with jaded hopes the sky's so clear now
3.
Today, Again 04:28
a screen blank with a passing note her blood clotted lightly sparse and spilt alone retrace this lasting hope repeat until we are apart the scent it gave was a tasteless grey a blood soaked tart, a dull light taste the gentle rain sweeps endlessly but let's please be like this right here again a scene grey this time passing slow her breath shudders... sullen- slowing now she spoke "we'll sing this lasting hope... repeat until we are apart" it hurts
4.
Innocence 02:16
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6.
Dysphoria 04:21
the way she can't live it's in her face i want to promise let it go away this time let things feel real so i do not feel the weight of growing distant i wish i grew up to speak the way you do feeling things i wish were so natural felt in the way that i am supposed to i sit and smile until i am your fool let go of patience it feels okay to be loud let go of kindness and shut it all out now let go of maybes and what it means to know truth maybe i'll find what i need confiding in you now you can never sleep you can never quite see never quite be the thing that i want me to be do you want to hurt so bad? that you can never forget again do you want to live like that? till you can no longer feel it there do you ever feel it won't end? that you can never ever hope again well, it feels so hopeless now it might as well just all come falling over words i say they feel numb to me thoughts i think they cannot make me move i wonder what it's like to even feel pain it's all over but the crying
7.
Us 03:19
8.
Pastel 04:19
hearts seem to half light my will thin bruises pass times thin veil i see you suffer slow here ill lie that not everything dies pastel white, slows your heart though i say "stay here" faint seams turn halfway harm will reject lest they may cry still your blood reflects me bright here ill lie that not everything dies the real feeling, the broken feeling without you now slowly passing, slowly knowing what you breathed once was right here days you reject growing lonely, growing colder a pain too deep in the summer like an IV that drips through a torn vein missing you makes me feel so ill the feeling breathes, you plant the seed and the simplicity of my heart shatters underneath the reality of the world
9.
Fetus 05:05
10.
Belong 04:36
the unfeeling subconscious will make my final conscious decision to alleviate my last ounce of sympathy everyone is the same once they sin the blood which drips down my left wrist is a justification the thoughts of the unadulterated masses is pure shit the hypocrisy is a tool which proves your weakness the meaning of my fatigue the wound is still fresh i view the world through a prism of my own blood and hatred i wish to hone a shard of glass and tear through your fucking face i hope deceit teaches you an eternal pain - just die let me embrace everything alone so i can finally rest in peace

about

"…Belong" is the 2nd full length album by Meishi Smile.

"…Belong" is about representation of the you. A coming of age metamorphism. The indentation signifies hesitance when attempting to speak on behalf of your inner most self. The intrusive thoughts, the broken feelings. The half-hearted, yet overwhelming pain within. The idealism of fitting into a world that welcomes, yet ultimately rejects you. Wishing your whole life to be apart of something - reaching for it, yet when arriving there you realize the same people who accept you are everything that you hate. Thus you begin to hate yourself. To look inward is the only true change you wish to invoke- the only thing you truly belong to is your own.

The album in lighter moments draws inspiration from the mechanical, yet emotionally crafted tone of '80s synthpop such as OMD, the melancholic shoegaze of The Radio Dept. the bubbling ambiance of Susumu Yokota and the EDM of Japan's Yasutaka Nakata.

In bleaker moments, "…Belong" takes a nod from harsh noise acts such as Prurient, the melodically driven power electronics of Elite Gymnastics and the most reflective moments of 808's era Kanye West.

Ultimately, the album addresses a narrative of duality, switching back and forth between the dichotomy of light and dark while retaining a sense of pop that is simultaneously introverted.

Lyrically, the album explores subjects of guilt ("Star"), romantic disconnection experienced through the digital divide ("Today, Again"), impressionable youth and suicide ("Blank Ocean"), gender identity and depression ("Dysphoria"), the coping of death ("Pastel"), abortion ("Fetus") and societal violence ("Belong"). Isolated struggles and feelings that are faced in a myriad of ways through the individual experience.

credits

released October 6, 2015

All songs written, recorded and produced by Faye Yin

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Photography:
Brian Vu

Creative Direction:
Faye Yin

Model:
Michelle Yoon

Mixed/Mastered:
Rob Duffy (cyclops.rocks)

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